im afraidd of ?

im truly , reaally , badly , extreamly afraid of

L O S I N G .

i dun know why suddenly i thought bout this ,
but it happen ,
esp when it comes near to my BIG EXAMINATION !
it had happened TWICE .
myself dun believe it really happened to me ,

in my UPSR .
my last day of UPSR ma grandpa passed away .
i'd been woke up with the news .
on the moment he'd been buried ,
i was in the exam hall taking BI n SCN paper 2 if im not mistaken .
i cried cried cried n stop .
ALHAMDULILLAH , straight A's !

again it happened during PMR .
my last paper on the second last day .
the nxt will be KH .
my mom tell me in the car ,
n i was like .
' OHH , BILE ? UMM '
speechless mann ,
b4 PMR , i'd told ma frens ,
i hope it wont be the same like UPSR .
but , naah . same story .
ma other grandpa .

but that story , im losing person who really not in world anymore .
what im really really afraid more is
im losing a gud fren which still alive ,
but she changed .
OMG , tht was pathetic ohh ,
now i dun know if she still remember me ,
but sokay ,
i gott more and more frens beside me .
insyaALLAH :)
but still , i LOVE ma frens .
i'll never delete any of u once u entered ma heart .
even u've changed .

i born to live in the flow ,
but it doesn't mean i will simply approved sumthing .
if i being nice to you , plez dun take me for granted .
i love making jokes , but it doesnt mean u can simply make jokes of me .
if u're my sayangg .
sokay , ta ambek ati kott .
tp jgn over laa ngekk :P
hehe .

hey guys , i even not sure why i wrote this . HAHA ,
for sure i felt so damn LEGAAAA .
just now , i feel wanna cry .
but hey , BIG GIRL DUN CRY . hee~


ps : pleeez dun leave me :( thnxx kawan if u treat me like everything :)