it's twelve in the morning . and yeahh , I feel sleepy but I just can't get my eyes close . there are too much thing in my head . thinking bout my life in future , SPM thing - GRR . friends stuff , I got annoyed easily these days . families hope , since I'm the first child in family . all the undone HWs , BM folio thing and all the handouts . I've never stressed out this much before . maybe I just grow older . maybe I'm trying to be more matured . maybe I just want the best for my life . but I just simply forgot everything I have before , am I not thanks enaff ? I think I'm not belong to where I am now . or I just feel like everyone doesn't seem like the people I used to meet before . maybe it's just me who never change or maybe I changed too much . I'm really confused now . well , look at my end year exam result . so terrible , never thought that I'm actually wasting a year just to have those grades . at school , I've started not to do my HWs . yess , everyone hates HWs but I act like the HWs are nothng to me . before , I used to tell myself ' kaw jugak yg rugi kalau tk buad HWs , bukan ckgu ' . now , I more likely to copy from others without do it myself first , I feel so bad now . again before , ' kaw tiru aku , aku tk rugi . tyme exam kaw na tiru mane ? ' but now , I am actually experimenting my words . ya ALLAH , show me the right path . bring me back to the real life . save me from all these misery . Amin .
P/S : I'll force myself to change
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