im not sure about this ,

it is between two ,
am I too bad for saying those words or it is my right to stand for my own good ,
am I being to selfish or it is okay sometimes to think about myself at first place ,

like before , I act like a dumb ,
I do whatever people ask me to do and straight away a nod for it,
I don't have any courage to say NO towards friends ,
at first , yeaah . it's okay cause that is what friends for ,
but yet , I feel betrayed at the same time ,
they don't seem to appreciate on what i had been doing for them ,
they don't understand me and the worst was i felt like they treat me like rubbish ,
i know , maybe im just a sidekick in their life ,

until ....
one day my mom scold me ,
she said ' why you must waste your time doing this ? ' ,
and knock knock , WHAT ? im wasting my time ? ,
maybe you are really true mother , im wasting my time ,
I stop doing those stuff now mak ,
thank you for make wake up from this i-dont-know-what-to-call-this ,

now I thnk I live my life way better than before ,
I can actually think smarter than before ,
but still , im afraid of letting people down ,
im afraid if I cant make everyone happy ,

I love to carve smile on people face ,
im happy when they can actually smile n laugh,
but I think this is the time for ,
me myself and I to smile n laugh happily ,
I know , if I laugh too much I'll cry at the end of the day ,
maybe I'll stop laugh and just smile ,
that's the best right ? hope so .





but still I LOVE YOU GUYS :)